I´m starting to feel weird inside out, again, one more time. Kinky, everything has the shade of kinky. Sky, wind, cold, night, nasty and kinky desires engulf my whole being.
In need of a hell of a one night stand, again, kinky fills my mind, my breath, my skin melting with desire.
Anything goes, as long as my screwed mind lets my body in flames, be taken away. Kinky, in lost with lust. Kinky, inside and out.
Feeling horny is not that strange anymore.
Feeling the need to fool around, around any living flesh, any mouth, any chest, and any underwear.
Desperate to be in bed, it´s cold outside. The night has already fall down, the sky is full of stars, no moon in sight, and no body to warm me up.
I´m kinky and horny and at the same time sad. Sad to be in the mood and to not have any chance to f…k!!!
Time goes by; opportunities disappear like water through the white and warm beach sand.
Youth is only a memory back, far away and deeply buried in a foggy and temperamental brain.
This combination is very bad. Desire and depression just can´t go hand in hand!
Still, this is real and sad.
A body that wants, a mind that escapes, a will that fades, a present that hurts and a longing so fierce that is killing my with its burning flames.
When will this pain and loneliness go away, far away and never return?
What is it that does not let me be quiet, in peace, serene and fulfilled?
Why can´t I let things be, stop the idea of ever falling in love?
Is this some kind of big life mistake that will end only with my death?
And I´m tired, and sad, and lonely and down.
I´m lost between fantasy, memories and the ugly truth.
Time to quit, to rest and let things be.
If anything changes, with or without my effort, must work for me.
No more pushing, searching, wishing, looking, fighting, crying.
I need to get laid, ASAP, and no matter what.
Is there somebody out there that will make me feel again, scream and come over and over, until dawn?
Is there a way to calm my inner self down?
Is there any hope that all this confusion will wane and never come back again?
Is it possible to forget the past, ignore the future and sleep away the present?
Is it possible to keep on and not get insane?
And after all, I´m still wanting, waiting, to sue this devastating desire.
I wish my mind will forget,
I wish my body will forget,
I wish life will forgive my insanity,
I wish for a last opportunity.
I wish to jump fearless again and fully in this moment, in this life.