jueves, 1 de diciembre de 2011

Shit happens!!!

I´m starting to feel weird inside out, again, one more time. Kinky, everything has the shade of kinky. Sky, wind, cold, night, nasty and kinky desires engulf my whole being.

In need of a hell of a one night stand, again, kinky fills my mind, my breath, my skin melting with desire.

Anything goes, as long as my screwed mind lets my body in flames, be taken away. Kinky, in lost with lust. Kinky, inside and out.

Feeling horny is not that strange anymore.

Feeling the need to fool around, around any living flesh, any mouth, any chest, and any underwear.

Desperate to be in bed, it´s cold outside. The night has already fall down, the sky is full of stars, no moon in sight, and no body to warm me up.

I´m kinky and horny and at the same time sad. Sad to be in the mood and to not have any chance to f…k!!!

Shit happens!

Time goes by; opportunities disappear like water through the white and warm beach sand.

Youth is only a memory back, far away and deeply buried in a foggy and temperamental brain.

This combination is very bad. Desire and depression just can´t go hand in hand!

Still, this is real and sad.

A body that wants, a mind that escapes, a will that fades, a present that hurts and a longing so fierce that is killing my with its burning flames.

Shit happens!!!

When will this pain and loneliness go away, far away and never return?

What is it that does not let me be quiet, in peace, serene and fulfilled?

Why can´t I let things be, stop the idea of ever falling in love?

Is this some kind of big life mistake that will end only with my death?

Shit happens!!!

And I´m tired, and sad, and lonely and down.

I´m lost between fantasy, memories and the ugly truth.

Time to quit, to rest and let things be.

If anything changes, with or without my effort, must work for me.

No more pushing, searching, wishing, looking, fighting, crying.

Shit happens!!!

I need to get laid, ASAP, and no matter what.

Is there somebody out there that will make me feel again, scream and come over and over, until dawn?

Is there a way to calm my inner self down?

Is there any hope that all this confusion will wane and never come back again?

Is it possible to forget the past, ignore the future and sleep away the present?

Is it possible to keep on and not get insane?

Shit happens!!!

And after all, I´m still wanting, waiting, to sue this devastating desire.

I wish my mind will forget,

I wish my body will forget,

I wish life will forgive my insanity,

I wish for a last opportunity.

I wish to jump fearless again and fully in this moment, in this life.

Shit happens!!!

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Buscando respuestas, busco opciones, busco opiniones, busco saber y aprender.Simplemente, no cumplo con ninguna regla, espectativa, predicciòn o definiciòn.


"La búsqueda de dios es una ocupación inútil, pues no hay nada que buscar donde nada existe. A los dioses no se les busca, se les crea..." Maximo Gorki


"Cuando practicamos Zen, vemos que el dolor no es malo. Simplemente es dolor. Si nos pasamos la vida huyendo de momentos dolorosos, le cerramos la puerta a muchas cosas que de lo que la vida nos trae, tanto el dolor como la alegría. No podemos llorar cuando estamos tristes, ni podemos reir cuando estamos felices. Cuando evitamos el dolor y peleamos para no sentirlo, el dolor se convierte en sufrimiento.
Hay una enorme diferencia entre dolor y sufrimiento. El dolor con frecuencia no puede ser evitado, pero el sufrimiento si. Al aprender las diferencias entre ambos, muchos temores desaparecen."
Brenda Shoshanna.

"Gender, along with race, class, ethnicity, and age, is one of the most profound social status determinants in our society--
Gender is just not what I care about or even really notice in a sexual partner--I judge each person as an individual--I have categories, but gender isn´t one of them. I´m erotically attracted to intelligent people, to people with a kind of sleazy, sexy come-on, to eccentrics."
Jane Litwoman

“Nuestro temor a lo que sea que lo cause, se origina de nuestra ignorancia y se manifiesta a través de nuestras inseguridades. Reaccionamos con fobias, rechazo y ataque, según nosotros para defendernos de los fantasmas de nuestra mente...cuando estos temores son tan sólo engaños y nos volvemos sus indefensos esclavos.”



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